Sunday, April 2, 2017

A Bit of the Blues

Well, maybe more than a bit. I haven't blogged or even read blogs for a while because I've been flat-out depressed. I've always been an anxious person, but these bouts of the blues started after the surgery to fix my broken leg in 2013. I had a pretty serious post-surgical depression, and ever since then, I've had the blues periodically.

Yes, I have a doctor and a therapist, so I'm not alone in this, but still. My mother and my friends have been very supportive, too. Coffee with friends has helped.
This episode started with insomnia, and after a week of that, I found myself spiraling downward.  But today I'm feeling a little better, which is a relief.

I have been quite a homebody through this, so I have one completed sock to show:
And you can see my Summer Camp shawl in the first photo. It's a very relaxing knit.
But mostly I've been working on the quilt for the Jewish Artists Lab show, which is April 30. Clearly I'm not working fast enough.

One more week until spring break. It has been a long haul since winter break! So, I'm hoping things are just going to get better.

21 comments:

  1. I know it is cliché to say, but things will get better. Also, I understand and am sending you much love.
    Enjoy all those beautiful stitches and let yourself heal.
    XO!

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  2. Oh my, so sorry you've been struggling but glad you feel as if you're improving. Hopefully as the weather warms it will help too. Lack of sleep definitely doesn't help, at least for me. Sending good thoughts your way; peace and love to you, dear Deborah

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  3. Oh my friend I am sorry you have been feeling blue. Depression is so complicated isn't it? It doesn't make sense and while you are in the midst of a bad bout it doesn't feel like it will end. I am glad you are taking care of yourself and I am glad you have a great support system. We are here for you.

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  4. Be sweet to yourself ---- going through depression is hard. Glad you have friend and family that understand. You have all of us behind you too. HUGS!

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  5. I'm sending you lots of positive vibes and warmth from across town. xoxo,
    S

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  6. hoping you are seeing the sun shine through the blues soon......SAD could possibly be contributing to the downward spiral, too. That spring break can only help, too!
    xo

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  7. So sorry to hear of your troubles. Wishing you better days ahead.

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  8. Try to spend some time in the sun even on a cool day. It helps me when I get the blues.

    I love your finished sock - well done!

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  9. Sorry to hear you were not well... Hope with Spring on its way you'll be feeling better soon!! (lovely label!!!)

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  10. Take care of yourself - I hope things will brighten soon. I know from my own experiences that it just happens when it's ready.

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  11. Sorry to hear you have been blue. So glad you have the support of friends and family...and all of us!! Hoping the sun stays out and helps you. Love your latest sock - great color and pattern!

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  12. BIg big big hugs to you. Glad you know you have support and I'm here too for you. I love your embroidery and your sock !!

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  13. I am just starting the Summer Camp shawl! Love the colors you are using. I'm going to use a rainbow colored yarn and possibly put it with gray... Have to see what I have in my stash! And I'm getting ready to cast on Buccaneer scarf - wow is that one pretty!
    I too suffer from anxiety attacks - and can spiral into depressions - some bad - some not as bad. So I feel for you!

    Linda in VA

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  14. Sending you love and tender thoughts and hopes that you continue to care for yourself. Remember you are not alone - beyond your 'real' friends, there are your internet friends!

    I hope you found much peace in your stitches this weekend - your handwork is stunning!

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  15. I understand. It is hard isn't it. I try and keep going and hoping that things will get better and often they do and as more time goes on - I have been at this longer than you by the sounds of it - I can say that I have learned to know that it will come round again to better days. I hope you can hold on to that and know that it can be true. In the meantime throwing yourself into something like your quilt can be a great thing to occupy the mind. I would sit and have a coffee with you if we were near each other, but instead I am sending you a virtual hug. I will be off cleaning and clearing my house like a maniac right now to keep my own mind occupied as I have similar times right now. xx

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  16. praying for you and that you feel better as spring reveals itself. Life is not easy at times is it?

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  17. I hope spring sunshine helps to lift your spirits!

    Awesome sock! And I have to admit I've never finished a quilt in a reasonable amount of time. I guess it takes however much time it takes! Looks gorgeous already!

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  18. I'm sorry you're going through a phase. There are more of us in this boat that I actually know than I ever thought. I understood and related to every word you wrote. You know you have us cheering you along as well. Your crafts look great! And what would you say to us?!? Don't be so hard on yourself. You are so self aware and know where that critique is coming from. Continue to embrace the lovely things you are creating and the good relationships around you. The rest will come, it will get better in it's own pace, but it will.

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  19. Spring break plus a good dose of sunshine should help raise your spirits. Till then,know that we are all thinking of you and sending hugs. Love your newest projects,too! Take care.

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  20. I'm so sorry I missed this, it's our busiest and most stressful term (I imagine yours too). Be good to yourself and enjoy the break.

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  21. I'm so sorry I missed this, it's our busiest and most stressful term (I imagine yours too). Be good to yourself and enjoy the break.

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