Sunday, November 18, 2018

When It Rains...

It's been a bit crazy here.  Between my dad's death and his funeral, I ended up being admitted to the hospital with Atrial Flutter. It's kind of like the more common A-Fib, but I'm way too queasy to explain the difference to you. What I can tell you is that when your heart isn't working right, you feel just awful!

The good news is that it can be fixed with a procedure call ablation. The bad news is that I am so queasy that I almost passed out when the cardiologist tried to explain the procedure to me. "I usually don't put patients out for this," he said, "but I think I'm going to have to in this case." I second that!
My dad as a boy. I think his openness and sweetness really shows itself.
I was out of the hospital in time for the funeral. For the first time, I really understood the Jewish tradition of family and friends placing the first shovelfuls of dirt on the coffin. There is something very comforting about being part of that process, although it was extremely emotional for my mom.

He hasn't been his "real" self for many years, but the finality of death is always difficult to grapple with.  He was a kind, smart, funny man who wanted to help others. One of our struggles after the dementia set in was that he wanted to donate insane amounts of money to public schools and other good causes. His goodness was appreciated in my hometown, so the funeral was well-attended. It was a fitting end to a life well-lived.

Because it was such a crazy week, I don't feel like the loss has hit me fully yet.

As you can imagine, I have not gotten much knitting done. It is taking me forever to finish the second sleeve on my Vodka Lemonade sweater ... but I'm almost there!

This weekend I've been reading blogs and enjoying catching up with you!

16 comments:

  1. Good to hear from you, and condolences again on the loss of your Dad.
    Good friend Dan had ablation and it made him a changed man. Hope you are feeling much better!

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  2. I also know others who have had ablation with success. Supporting parents to the end of life is quite a journey and can take a toll. I wonder if you resemble your Dad? Thank you for sharing a little of his story.

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  3. Sending more hugs! Love that sweater!

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  4. Sorry to hear about your dad and your health problem. All that stress takes it's toll. Hope you do feel better soon. The cardigan will be nice.

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  5. Well, I'm glad you will be OK - take care of yourself!

    God bless your dad and your family. I will keep all of you in my prayers.

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  6. Oh my! Take care of yourself and I am sending heartfelt condolences at your father's passing.

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  7. Dealing with a death of a parent is difficult when a person feels well, but being ill makes it even harder. Your body and spirit need rest. Be at peace and know your friends (virtual as well as those close by) are praying for you and your extended family.

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  8. Oh wow! I'm SO sorry for your loss and wish you health and recovery. You and your family will be in my prayers.

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  9. Your knitting can certainly wait...your health cannot. So sorry to hear about that on top of the loss of your Dad. Please take care of yourself and be gentle on yourself. All of us are obviously thinking of you and keeping you in our prayers.

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  10. I am so sorry to hear of you having health problems at the same time you are trying to grieve for your father. Grief is such a long, strange process. The photo of him is so sweet. He was a very handsome little fella!

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  11. My heart goes out to you. Sometimes our heart really does break when a loved ones dies. Hugs to you and remember we are here to support you.

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  12. Thinking of you my friend. I have to say my Dad has been gone 3 years and it seems my heart aches for him the longer he is gone. I can step away from all the crazy things he said and did and just miss him for who he really was. Sending you a hug.

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  13. I'm sorry you had queasy heart problems. I'll be thinking of you!

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  14. BLess your heart!!!! Im so glad you are in better shape now and your heart can beat healthy! Again, Im so sorry for your loss. I first witnessed the shoveling of dirt on a casket about 35 years ago. It was a baby's casket. Oh it was so painful to watch. I thought the family was so strong to be able to do that. Im glad you found it comforting.

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  15. Sorry for the loss of your Dad. My condolences to you and your family. Hope you are feeling well after being in the hospital. The sweater looks great! Well wishes and hope you have a good rest of your week

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  16. So sorry for the loss of your Father, it's always hard when that 'final' time arrives. Keeping you and your' family in my thoughts and prayers. And A-Fib , that can feel so awful and scary. Heal well!

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